An Abecedary for the New Year, In Which I will…

Painted door featuring the word "exit" found in the trash
down the street from my house on Jan. 1, 2009

1. Architect my own successes, in other words
   
2. Be the
   
3. Cause for things to go
   
4. Down the way I want.
   
5. Every year begins with a
   
6. Fear that I am
   
7. Going to lose my job because it
   
8. Happened on two different Januarys in the 00's.
   
9. It doesn't help that former exorcist, Republican sweetheart, and Louisiana Governor Bobby
   
10. Jindal has implemented cuts to higher education and that is where I am employed, recently so at that.
    
11. Knowledge of such possibilities
    
12. Lends itself to anxiety, and anxiety
    
13. Makes its own realities if left unchecked.
    
14. No amount of worry
    
15. Or anguish will be of
    
16. Possible assistance, nor will it answer the unanswerable
    
17. Question of
    
18. "Really how
    
19. Secure is
    
20. This job?" I am operating
    
21. Under the memory that I created any successes in the past, and
    
22. Viewing the
    
23. World through the warped lens of an-
    
24. Xiety only
    
25. Yields a warped reality. Thus, I am considering 2009 a
    
26. Zone where things are vivid and clear.